2 years ago to this day, just two and a half weeks from my 16th birthday, something horrible and life-shattering happened:
One of my best friends died.
Most of the people who know Cody now who aren't from his hometown don't realise that the boy was once an IDENTICAL twin... Cody and Casey. They were the coolest guys ever in my eyes. Having just turned 19 at the time, they were "older and more sophisticated" and knew how to have fun. Cody'd always been closest to me, prolly because we were in one of our on again off again boyfriend/girlfriend stages... But Casey was a confidante. He was there when i needed a ride, a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on... Especially over when his twin screwed up.
Casey was amazing.. A good guy.. He was on his way to my house from their cousins' house two counties over to hang out with me, tiff, and cody. It was raining and cold. over 13 people witnessed the truck, an eighteen wheeler, who was trying to pass Casey up on the highway, lose control and veer into his lane, pushing Casey's brand new Ford off the road, causing it to flip. And then be impaled by a pine tree.
19 years old... And gone. FOURTEEN HUNDRED PEOPLE showed up at his funeral. For an amazing 8 days, i never cried.. i was there for my boyfriend... Drove him where he needed to go.. put him up in my bed whenever going home seemed too bad for him... and then on the 8th day, when he was starting to finally move on, i lost it. Went into an uncontrollable crying fit.
I sorta had pushed it to the back of my find. I'd forgetten, until I saw Cody walk through my door at exactly mid night. for an amazing 10 seconds, I thought it was Casey. And I broke down. And his brother, the amazing Cody, whom I've been treating like shit, wrapped me up in his arms and held me. Let me cry. Carried me to bed... And he fell asleep there. I left him there, because I just had an urge to type... And mourn a little. Sure, Cody cheated on me. But... He was also a first love. And the chemistry is perfect... So very very perfect.
I'm almost afraid to sleep, because sleeping means dreaming.
2 comments:
I'm so sorry Belle,
Its always hard loosing a friend. One of my friends died when he was 17.
It must have been so hard on you and Cody. It good that you have each other to lean on. And it looks like you'll always have each other.
Don't use tragedy as a reason to have a relationship though. Make sure your thinking of good time not bad times.
take care Belle xx
i'm sorry for your loss. i haven't lost a friend to death, so i can't exactly relate to your pain. but i don't know how i would deal with it if they did pass away. if you lean on Cody, and Cody leans on you, you can support each other, through this, through possibly anything.
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